Sorry but how do you take a shifting break when that’s all you’re about in life ?

So I made a post months ago about how I daydreamed more about my drs, scripting, watching things, searching things related to it than actually shifting.

I got told I should take a break and I was like ok let’s do it but then I realized it was going to be harder than expected because when I tell you everything in my phone is related to it, the emptiness and boredom I felt when I for examples : stopped doing Pinterest board, reading ff about my drs, watching vlogs that depicts my better crs, scrolling on tik tok, etc.

It also wasn’t helping that I was trying to fix my short attention span and fried dopamine receptors.

I don’t know what to do anymore, it’s been months but I’m still stuck and I haven’t progressed, if I felt so far away from my drs after failed attempts, now it’s on a whole another level.