I feel inferior when I have a disability and that I got sended to a special education system, which gave me trauma.

This had been on my mind ever since I left special education school system and I cannot get over myself of how low I felt to myself when I was diagnosed with language development disorder since I was 5 years old. It made me think that people outside of these type of school are better mentally equiped to learn and had more advantage to grow while I am stuck in this loop of slow learning and always make the same mistake. I'm just not sure how I can recover from that and respect myself again for gaining support and chasing my dreams coming true.