Thinking about second drop

I wasted my first year of my drop had a lot of mental health issues and now I messed up my last chance of going to any government college I could go to any private one though but I don't really want to go to college I like to be alone I am an athlete too so thought I could focus on that but now I would probably take a drop again I don't mind is as I don't want to go college but now everybody will just come after me for not going to college or what am I doing

Insert 'Ajj rat Ko sub theek kar dunga
Sushant Singh Rajput gif'