all i feel is rage

i just want some empathy, man. i'm sick and tired of having to fucking explain myself to people just to try and recieve some decency from others, all for no avail. you want to fucking know if i need some help? why not take a gander at all the goddamn pentagrams on my skin, why not fucking acknowledge my several attempts at suicide? what must i do to be worthy of any FUCKING sympathy? jesus christ i'm too tired to care anymore. i've written like what, 4 threads already just to waste my damn time. nobody fucking cares about me so maybe i should just go on with my plan of becoming the next big gore video being spread online