my mom cost me my autism diagnosis

The anger from this is really hitting me today, even though it happened seven months ago. My mom was super toxic and emotionally abusive to me, and in my adult life (basically after I went to college), she has been talking about how she regrets a lot of things and is trying to change.

She knew I had been wanting to get officially re-assessed ever since I found out that my diagnosis from Embr*ce Autism was a scam, and she seemed to be really trying so I took a leap of faith and let her be the parent that the person assessing me interviewed.

A few weeks later, the lady goes over my results with me. She undiagnoses me with ADHD, and diagnoses me with Avoidant Personality Disorder instead of Autism — completely ignoring my social history, sensory struggles, stimming, eye contact, and most importantly, the fact that I do not have avoidant behavior and have never stopped trying to make friends despite my struggles.

The doctor then tells me that my mother told her that she probably coddled me too much as a child - implying that my struggles might come from that. My mother, who would make me >!str*p, and then b*** my a** !<for mistakes I didn’t even know I was making, coddled me too much as a child? The same mother who would scream at me in the car for struggling with anxiety and panic? The same mother who told me that she was reflecting on the past and regrets a lot of things??

Mind you, I’m the real idiot here. When I got my first diagnosis through Embr*ce (scam) she told me that she “always knew I was different, but she didn’t want to admit it because it would have ruined her ideal of a perfect family"

I’m so angry and done. What a waste.