A little time off with my boyfriend turns out to be the best time ever

Needed somewhere to vent about this.

My boyfriend and I took a break for a while, and everything was handled respectfully. During that time, I met someone and started seeing him casually. What I expected to be a simple distraction turned into something much more memorable than I anticipated.

Later, my boyfriend and I got back together, which genuinely made me happy. The problem is that I couldn't completely put the other experience behind me. Even after reconciling, I found myself drawn back to it and eventually crossed a line I probably shouldn't have.

I still care about my boyfriend, which is what makes all of this so confusing. Sometimes I wish I'd never opened that door in the first place, because now I'm stuck carrying thoughts I can't seem to shake.