im so chopped i want to kms

I hate how I look so much, and no matter what I do to look good, I'm still chopped, and I still get made fun of and laughed at for how I look, and there are times where I go to the bathroom for 2 minutes to brush my teeth, and I end up staying there for 20 minutes just looking at how chopped I am. Every day I wonder what my life would be like if i looked good and how much better life would be. Me being chopped is not the only reason why i want to kill myself but it is one of the reasons.