Sing

You were at the Ladytron show and we stood near each other. A drunk guy hugged you and we looked at each other and laughed I mouthed “I’m sorry🥴”. We started to talk and I want you to know that I loved talking to you. It was so easy.

I found myself giggling at our exchanges and every time your arm brushed against mine my heart fluttered.

When “Sing” came on, you bent down to my ears and you said “this is my favorite song”. I knew it was a big moment for you; when your favorite song is performed by the artist live. You looked me in the eyes and held my gaze for a long time and then we both laughed. I don’t know what we were laughing at…. We just laughed. I felt so honored that you shared such a sweet moment with me. It’s like you already knew that those are the moments that mean everything to me. If we had known each other better, or at all, I would have held your hand.
When the drunk guy hugged you, you said “I don’t like to be touched”. But you never flinched when our arms brushed countless times. Towards the end, I could swear you were doing it on purpose.

When the show was over I wanted to talk to you more and invite you to my favorite bar for vegan food and a cbd soda. I wanted to hear you talk about music more. It made me so happy to meet someone that loves music the way that I do.
But instead, I ran away. Like…. As soon as the band was off the stage.
I immediately regretted it. I didn’t even stop myself. I just ran away. What was I thinking?!

Why did I run away?

I’ve thought about you every day since.

You have no idea what that time with you meant to me.