I need vent. MY MOM TRICKEDED MY MENTAL HEALTH THIS.

I just need to vent and find people who have dealt with this and what they doing now. I blocked her

Hi my name Tina, I'm 35, have had a toxic relationship with my mother. So the last time I talked to my mom was in January everything was cool chit chat and then she goes no contact doesn't talk to me so I just let it be and I don't call her back and I don't text. This past week she calls me and she's freaking out because I live in Alaska and she thinks that something she saw on Facebook to her and she thought I thought I was dying or something. I'm fine everybody's fine I don't know where that came from. So I have mental health really bad and I take medication and there's a lot of things that trigger me and she is one of the biggest triggers because of the things that she has done in my life. So after she asked if we're okay I proceed to try to force a conversation with her because I have not talked to her since January now be on the phone she has never asked about her grandson she never asked about how I was doing or how my little family is doing or you know how to Alaska how was the weather what's the plans for the summer. She rushes me off the phone. You have been on the phone for like 10 minutes. When I went back and looked to see how long we actually been on the phone. It was 10 minutes and it really triggered me cuz I was like I know I'm an adult and I know like she was just checking on me but at this age I feel like she doesn't even care anymore like she gave up at 18. She told me to leave but I move back when I was 22 that was horrible she said some things that I never would say to my child. And this has been an ongoing situation for a while and my begged her crying twice he's being online please care please be present. So she's jealous of like the people that I ever can actually see but she doesn't make the effort to come see because she's super close she lives in Washington. So this morning she calls me and she tells me and you're 36 years I've been holding us in and I'm thinking that my dad's not my dad like it's something bad. So I frantically freak out and I think okay let's get my sister on the call and she said no your sister's already knows about this we don't need to get her on the call. She proceeds to tell me that I've tried to kill my sister three times and I don't remember this cuz I was a child. One time when I was at my aunt's house apparently I told her I don't want her to be my mom anymore and I want my aunt to be my mom and I really stuck with her and she says that's why I act the way I do. Then I proceed to tell her is that why you left us at everybody's house. The things that has happened in my life is because she decided to be on neglected parent. But blaming me for things that I don't remember. But not ones asked if we can change it what could we do better. So after she said all those things I hurried up and got off the phone because my husband was on the other line so I hurried up and hung up with her and talked with him and in that time he told me I think you should block her because she's just starting a lot of drama right now and it's messing with your emotions and we had went out and had a family day and I was so happy about that. I've blocked her I didn't know what to say and she asked if you wanted to start over and I said yes before I got off the phone but at this point I don't know like I feel bad that I had to block her but I don't feel bad about saying the things that I had to say to her. I know I'm not the only one that goes thiugh this. Side note my sister has same traits as my mother so taking her about this she gives me full answers like she always does this why do you care some much. I let it go you should let it go.

If you get done all the way to the bottom thank you for reading this and I appreciate your comments.