Social Anxiety and ADHD. Summer break scares me

This is going to make me sound like a rich asshole. But bruhh, I am ordering food from a restaurant that's not even a quarter mile far from my place.

I make excuses like, hey, I'm in grad school, and I'm an ambitious nerd, so I gotta learn, (which I love to do btw), and I can't spend time to cook when Im always tied up with work or recharging my social battery or relaxing.

It's lame excuses that I make. Maybe it isn't. And I know I'm wasting a shit ton of money, my parents just gave me. I'm living in agony when I think about it though. Now summer's coming up, and my heart's beating faster again. Looks like we'll see some anxiety attacks this season, folks.

I'm on medications, trying to come off of benzos which I've been taking for too long. It's a miracle I'm not ab*sing it.

I have a ton to share. I have other defects and insights about myself. I have the most negative outlook on a lot of things.