Totally thwarted

We took 5 months off and went back to drinking 2 weeks ago. I’m still trying to find the moderation. We relearned how to live without alcohol and the goal is to relearn how to live with it.

Today was annoying. The goal is to never really have more than 5. We aim for 3-5 on Friday and Saturday (we don’t drink the other days). We go to our beach house on the weekends. We used to drink 5-6 drinks on the beach during the day. Today we had 1. It was incredible. I took a nap. I have not been so peaceful on a beach in years. Great start! Then we came home and rested for a couple hours.

The plan was to go to our home base bar (we had 1 drink there and then they poured us a shot that we did not ask for on the way out) uber to the entertainment district with all the bars to visit a sister bar to our home bar. They don’t serve food so we went to a nearby place. Ordered a drink.. they took over 35 minutes to tell us they were out of our order so we left. Ugh. Went up another place we like, turns out there was a private party so the restaurant was closed.. they love my husband ao they gave us a drink. Ugh. Finally decided to go to a restaurant that is tried and true.. had a drink there with our food. Never made it to our destination bar because we were so annoyed we just ubered back to our home base where we had 2 drinks before going home. It’s so frustrating how we just suddenly ended up 8 drinks deep yet none of them felt out of place. Like we did try. We dont drive in our beach town so it’s fine but sometimes it really feels like there is no at yo get a handle on it. Even with the best intentions.