Hate you

I hate you. I hate that I'm so broken without you. I hate that I spent 5 years loving you. Building up your self esteem. Your self confidence. Reassuring you everyday that you were beautiful and that I loved you. Helping you with your stress and your anxiety. Watching your son grow up. I hate that I'm sitting here so fucking alone and you're with the guy you cheated on me with multiple times. The guy you told me was crazy and had a small dick and that it was an accident that you fucked him the first time and begged me and promised me things would be different this time around. That you promised me on your own son that you wouldn't speak to him again. You swore on your own son that you wouldn't betray me again and you did anyways. You lied and disrespected me. You kept saying it was a mistake. It wasn't a mistake it was a choice. I was your emotional affair. You didn't want me to come see you because then it would be real and you didn't want to have to answer those questions. You're a cheating lying whore and I hate you and I hate that I still fucking love you. Im going to hate you until the day I die you bitch. I'm not okay. You've killed my fucking soul. You wanted to marry me you begged me not to break up with you the night before you hung on me to talk to the guy you cheated on me with just to tell me you wouldn't hang up on him and that you'd rather me with him than me. You fucking broke up our 5 years relationship over a text you fucking bitch. You're worse than any girlfriend in my past you're the worst. I'll never trust another fucking soul like I did yours. Get out of my fucking heart.