All lifelines/supporting websites are blocked and I feel stuck

I'm 19M and I've been a trans ally for a very good while, and have always liked trans characters in various media, but I really never saw this coming

So I had what could be considered a gender awakening moment last week or so, where i started questioning, researching, and reading.

and I don't think I'm cis anymore.

I feel that the trans identity fits me, I want to be trans. But I still have a lot of complicated feelings like doubts, fear, and confusion. Do I really want to be trans? Could this just be a phase ? Am I just being delusional or tricking myself? Am I misunderstanding myself? Is my silly wish to transition a real wish? And so on.

This is disturbing my days and I can't focus on anything because of it, and the best part is that I'm currently having my final exams and I should say I didn't do great for all the exams I had till now.

I knew this would happen so that's why I was trying to reach any mental health consultant since day one.

And here is the thing: I can't reach anyone.

I tried the trevor project live chat but it doesn't work outside the US, tried texting or calling but my county - Egypt, arab world country btw- banned the all numbers, Also tried the choices centre and many other websites and organizations but they all had somewhat of similar issues and I simply can't reach anyone.

This makes me feel so alone and stuck, I can't get any resolution to my feelings, and I also can't just get back to my life before even though i tried and still trying. And yeah all mental health professionals here still consider gender incongruence a disorder, I'm pretty sure if I booked any appointment here I will just get hurt, And I can't really afford online appointment either.

I had a depression state too when I realized if I'm actually trans, then i can't really transition anyway and started quietly panicking till I just accepted it as a very cold fact.

So what should I do? Is there more accessible ways to reach consultants on the internet? Or maybe I should approach all of this a different way?