Maybe I’m looking for a unicorn

Hi everyone, I’m a baby cosmo who graduated last year from cosmetology school. I started work at a salon during school and got super burnt out. Environment was veryyy toxic and it gave me PTSD. I went on vacation one day back in September and never returned. I have about 9 months of training, still not comfortable on my own. However it’s been about 9 months since working at a salon and I think I’m ready to dip my toes back in. Not sure if I want to go back as an “assistant” as they don’t pay livable wages and I live in NYC and you know how that goes. I think this time around I’m looking for a mentor that would train me when I’m available possibly shadow them 1-3 times a week for a few hours, they don’t even have to pay me really. Is that even a thing? Or I should just go back to assisting even if it’ll burn me out? Not sure but I miss salon life I just need a better outlet to develop my skills.