I got blocked suddenly

hello i wanted to share this story because i need help and i keep overthinking it im still young and maybe i dont understand the situation well thats why i made this post

im 17 years old there is this guy i have been having a crush on for a very long time ever since 10th grade i have always admired him from afar and never once spoke to him one day in 11th grade we had a class together and i couldn't help but stare at him he was so good in maths that was attractive for me lol so i decided i'd gather up all of my courage and confess to him but...from a fake account and i sent him a long message saying how long i have admired him from afar and i genuinely think he is a cool person and that i didnt want to live with the what ifs so here iam confessing to you and sent that message.

and shockingly he knew it was me. i dont know how and i never knew but he immediately said my name i panicked and kept telling him its not me but he assumed it was me HE WAS SURE but he told me that he cant like me because his friend has a huge crush on me and that its okay to have feelings for someone you're brave for doing that and dont feel bad and he KEPT on reassuring me although all of my friends warned me from him he is a play boy he had dated over 7 girls dont fall for him gont get close to him but when i saw how he was reassuring me i felt safe and i knew i had chose the right one to admire. but then he told me he is in a complicated situationship and yeah..we didnt talk again until few days later i posted a song on my note on instagram and changed my username and he texted me i was so excited but he just asked me if my new username had a meaning and that he likes the song (my old username was named madeforu so he would accept my follow request lol)

anyways days passed and we started talk more he was so interesting and turns out he really dated 7 girls he even kept flirting with me doing the push and pull method he was being..so confusing and i was stupidly falling harder we talked alot got closer and called every night he helped me with my math homework and we wrote on each others shirt at school (we DIDNT interact at school at all except writing for each others since it was last day of school) we never walked together we never did anything he said he doesn't like that and that he doesn't want people to like..you know tease him about it so i respected that because i didnt want that either

finally..we decided to hang out. he once told me that he hung out with alot of girls but it was so rushed and he didnt like it at all he said it was so annoying going on a date with a girl you just met but like we laughed it off didnt take it seriously anyways we didnt quite hangout it was the last day of school and i was going out with my friends so i called him and asked him if he wanna come along and he agreed

and yea we did meet it was actually SO fun we joked we walked around (he didnt get me anything tho) and we sat together and talked he talked to me about his family problems and because im a shy person i didnt comment on basically we stayed together for an hour and then i had to go he walked me to my friends and was being an abs gentleman and he even kept complimenting my outfit

anyways. when i got home i didnt get a text. from him until like 3 hours later maybe and it was only "i hope you had fun" Thats it and i said yesss i did have so funn!! and that was it. we didnt talk again that day

next morning i didnt get a text from him at all nothing it was unusu because ever since we got closer he always texted me so i decided to text him i thought maybe because i didnt ressure him about his family problems yesterday he felt awkward with me? i texted him apologizing and telling him that he is strong and im proud and stuff oh i forgot to tell you he always vented to me. about everything his mental health his past relationships his relationships with his paren and i would talk to him and make him feel better and he even would tell me i make him feel so much better and that my words make so much difference anyways when i sent that message he brushed it off and said nahh its okayy i didnt really think much of it lol

thats it..i liked his message and didnt text him again and later...i found out he blocked me..everywhere whatsapp.. instagram. tiktok. i panicked i literally panicked i opened imessage and texted him this exact message

"I literally dont understand you. And i never will and you really disappointed me thought you were something but you proved me wrong. Anyways i did the best i could and i dont want any explanation hope you had fun."

and his response shocked me. He replied with

"not much."

and i sent this

You seriously have serious mental issues so all of the things i said to you didnt matter to you??

then he blocked me there too. I dont understand what gone wrong..he was literally the sweetest guy ever i thought alot about it and felt lime he did that because he thought im ugly when we went out together because it was the first time for us to spend time together and when he stared at me he thought im ugly?? I dont know guys im panicking and im feeling so insecure now although he used to tell me how pretty iam and how much he wants to get with me but he doesnt want to betray his friend..so im asking for help what do you think this mean??🙁