I hate my body.

I hate it the fat on my body. all of it. on my arms. my thighs. my stomach. my back. if I rest a certain way, lumps form on my body, and it absolutely disgusts me. I pull at it all the time, wishing it would just go away.

I weigh 130 ibs normally, sometimes a bit higher or lower. my parents say I’m skinning, so do all my friends. but I don’t see it. if I was skinning, then I shouldn’t have all this fat on me.

i wish I could just cut off all my fat. i wish I could just have all the sections I hate removed and finally be skinning. yet I can’t. I hate it. I hate this body, this fat. every time I look in a damn mirror all I see is fat.

all the girls at school are skinny. they’re so pretty. compared to me I’m a fucking pig. I just want to be pretty. I want to wear a tank top and not feel like a pig wearing clothes to small for its body. I want a flat stomach. I want small thighs. I want no arm and back fat.

i just want to be pretty.