**Credits: Tarotbykj**

I have autistic or BPD behaviour, with hints of schizophrenia, and have to choose a number. I put credits on top but it is not an advertising or recommendation for that person but only appreciation to create these images.

My life seem like it needs me to choose 5, but it brings too much restlessness in life and I already swing in extremes of mindset, always on toes, worried about something, avoiding conflicts because even speaking normally causes misunderstandings. That constant Panick mode is not good for me but it aligns most with who I am turning into. Alignment does not mean it is in my best interests. You may know swimming but swimming in ocean will not save you from sharks.

I think I have to choose between 6 and 5. But I feel that all of these numbers are all messed up. I feel incapable of living in those conditions. Yet happy people exist in this world somehow with all numbers. It is just I cannot tolerate any of the situations, which are proclaimed here. They seem too exhausting for me.

Which number and its description seems more “safe” from mental anguish and pain in chest, making you want to live longer? 

You do not have to believe in these explanations or numerology. Merely feel free to pick a number for sake of picking the best living conditions and let me know why it is the best choice.

Choose a number whose situation you can tolerate and tell me why.