A test ??? Messed up my life - feeling like lying is the answer but that also sucks

Salam walaikum,

I am in a really difficult situation. I went for uni in India and I messed it up massively, a four year course I didn’t graduate. My parents found out I failed at the end of 4 years and then I was stuck for another year, I tried giving the exams but failed again. I was tired of it so I left the uni by faking a provision certificate.

Now it’s been 2 years since then I came to India, and my parents are asking me to go and get my degree. I want to fake it again and show them a fake degree. Just to move past this whole thing, but I am scared they’ll find out it’s a fake.

A little bit about my Indian parents, they are quite religious and super sensitive about education. They really need this and my dad is a very angry person.

I have not had a stable job in the last 2 years however in the last 6 months I did start earning decently, enough to pay for myself. I do live with them at the moment as well.

I really do not know what to do and how to go about things. I personally don’t care about the degree, but my dad spent a lot of money on it which is also a big issue.

I have told him before I’ll pay him back but so far I have not done anything on that end.

Another thing is I don’t know how they will react, my dad will take the anger and probably put some out at me as well. But my mum is not really physically healthy, so I’m afraid what this may do to her as well.

The inner Muslim inside wants to tell the truth and leave everything to Allah. But I also want to avoid them and myself of pain and opportunity costs in case things go really south.

I know this is a huge test for me and im afraid to take a step.