My first WLW breakup got worse

I dated my ex for almost 5 years. Within that time she did a lot of messed up things.

- She pretended to be somebody else on an app that i would vent anonymously on. She would message me asking how i was feeling, checking in, acting as a friend. She even posted about a “cute guy” that went into her work etc. I found out it was her and she said she made the account because she just wanted to know how i felt emotionally... as if she couldn’t just ask.

- The entire relationship i had to practically beg her to lift a finger to clean anything.

- Never wanted to go to gay events with me because she said she was scared of getting shot. (but went to pride w her new gf)

- Cheated on me but won’t admit it.

- Told people we broke up because i made her anxious.

- Had posted some weird comment on a subreddit for breast enhancement… which she has never wanted (she is masc and does not like having breasts).

Of course in typical lesbian fashion we live together and since our breakup she has described her sex life to me with the girl she cheated on me with. Said her “hole” was smaller and that she’s skinnier bla bla bla.

I SH during the beginning of the break up because I was in so much pain. I was willing to feel anything else. She found out I did this to myself and did not seem empathetic or sad but almost happy…almost prideful that she was capable of hurting me so bad.

Good news is that our lease ends soon and one of the things we agreed i would keep is the record player.
Welllll lo and behold i come home one day and it’s gone. She said she was going to give it to a friend & got mad at me for “making it an argument” when i told her i was frustrated she intended to give something away that wasn’t hers to give away.

She continues to disrespect my time and space by abruptly informing me that her and her gf are coming to pack her stuff but then leaves half her things at the apartment anyways.

Lastly, today she took her dog. The dog that i basically raised, cared for, paid vet bills for & was his sole caretaker. Grieving the relationship back in September was hard but this is a whole other heartbreak. This relationship has brought me so much grief and i have continued to be a nice human to her. Idek what for anymore. My heart hurts and I am tired of grieving.

On top of all this, i feel like i haven’t been able to properly heal because i am in a space that we created together, a space where i feel watched and constantly reminded of things.

Im not sure why i’m posting this, i guess i just need to vent and in need of some support.

I know things will get better but damn has this whole breakup been a challenge.