1 am, lc tomorrow and im feeling every single emotion at once.

im not sure if these types of posts can go in ehre or if theres a different subreddit or any subreddit at all but i just need ti get my feelings out anyway because i hsve nobody to talk to. i have leaving cert irish paper 1 tomorrow which honesrly i dont care about the leaving cert but its adding like 10x the stress into my life. it started when i woke up and i went out with my parents and we went to a restaurant that wasnt the one i usually go to and it was a carvery and i hate carverys and i walked in and there was so many people and so many noises and i started crying and my parents got mad at me for crying even though i wasnt making a scene or anything it was just silent tears and we sat down and the food tasted different and it was making me very overwhelmed and then we left and i was out until like 7 and i got home and everything was fine again and then around 11 i had a discussion with my boyfriend which wasnt an argument but was just a talk about his feelings and i said id change about this topic a few hours earlier and then he brought it up again and it made me feel like he didnt believe my apology but i listened to him and understood and then he went to bed and i just started crying aboht how everytime i talk to someone im too much and im too sensitive and i cry all the time and then i started thinking about how i have no friends, like, i have 3 friends that i barely hang out with and then i started thinking about how im nobodys person. everybody has a person but im nobodies person and like i know im my bfs person but i dont mean romantically, (btw my bf is amazing im in no way slandering him at all in this post he is the best person in the world), i mean in friendships its always theyre my best friend and im not theirs but then i started thinking about how my sisters dont live with me anymore and i never get to see them and rhen i thought about how i used to be so smart and get really good marks in school and now i do shit in every subject and it makes me feel useless and then i started thinking about how much i want normal parents who dont fight and dont drink and then ti started ro tjink about how i was never taught anything growing up because my parents never care d to twach me and how my sisters all are a lot older so they were always busy or moody and i had to twach myself everything and now im pretty irresponsible because my mam would just do everything for me when i was younger instead of teaching me and then i started thinking about how prople in school dont like me for no reason? im just like them im just a bit quiet and they think its fun to take the piss out of ne even when i didnt have dyed hair or piercings, they always had an issue with me specifically and i just want it all to stop i want to go to sleep but ive been crying for hours and i just want my feelings to be normal i dont want to feel everything enhanced all the time. i just always feel everything 10x more than everyone else does and i want it to stop i want to be normal i want peace i.n my mind