I think i am bisexual or lesbian.

I am religious so i feel like ive always just hid/covered up my feelings (pls no bashing my faith though, im very happy as a Christian) but i definitely feel such a strong love for women. Ive had one relationship with a girl and it was so amazing, i felt so shy around her and she was my first kiss. we kissed in a field in summer and idk, i get along so much nicer with a woman. ive came out of a relationship with a man and i really did love him and have strong feelings for him, but im not sure if I’d want to be with a man again. the only thing about it is having sex with a woman. i can imagine having really deep feelings for a girl and being totally inlove but the sex part scares me bc it’s very different from what I’m used to and i dont think i would know what to do and itd result in embarrassment for me.. but yeah. i still feel a sense of guilt, ashamed about it, but i am NOT homophobic i have no problem when other ppl are together it’s just, aimed at myself i guess