suddenly become extremely self aware of how i was/am treated

I’m 22 and in the last year or so i feel like i’ve suddenly become very self aware of everything. I have been diagnosed with POTS, anxiety, depression, and been living in a state of fight or flight/hyper vigilance probably since i was about 5 years old and it’s also gotten worse in the last few years since finishing school and being at home. I rely on my parents still because i am unable to work because of my POTS/anxiety. I also can’t drive because of my constant dizziness. It also doesn’t help that when i was old enough to learn to drive the first thing my mum said “was i know you won’t get your licence”. and now she constantly flames me for not having it. sorry i don’t know where im going with this but my mental state is just getting worse and worse and i wish i could just sit down and have a conversation with my mum about what i need/want from her and how i was treated has contributed to all my problems but i cant. pretty sure my mum also has undiagnosed adhd. my younger sister is always on my mums side and constantly shames me for everything and my dad will listen to me but then just says “oh well idk what i can do that’s just what your mum is like”. i can’t keep going on like this and it’s gotten so much that ive now become so self aware of what i have to do to keep my mum happy. i don’t even know what this post is about anymore i just can’t do this anymore.