Is this a safe space to get a little parasocial and fangirl? 🫣 This is more of a text post than a picture post. sorry if that’s not allowed! I just have nowhere else to fan girl over a pornstar lol. Quite the new experience 😅

I’m not even much of a porn watcher usually, but I came across a video of Sarah’s, and I’ve been completely obsessed with her since!

First of all, one of the most beautiful smiles I’ve ever seen in my LIFE. I could stare at it all day. I’m so happy it’s so commonly present in her videos. 

I’ve started watching her interviews more because I just enjoy her personality so much and it’s so fun just watching her have a conversation (of course, the sex stuff is amazing too). I love that she’s got such a sense of humour about her. I love that she talks about more serious things with a sort of calm but honest pragmatism. She seems to genuinely be interested in other people’s thoughts and feelings in a non judgmental way. I love that she loves herself (or at least i HOPE she does) and has such a sureness when she speaks of her desires and choices. I love that she’ll wear crazy shit like a latex hood. She just seems so truly comfortable in her own skin.

And above all, it’s just so unbelievably rare to see a true and genuine pervy and slutty woman. Let alone one who can do that with such ease. Even in the realm of porn actresses, it’s unique to see. And something about seeing a beautiful, intelligent woman be that is so addictive. I feel like a lot of the women in the public eye who present themselves as that super sexual, free spirit persona are never actually like that in real life (not that there’s anything wrong with that but it’s exciting when its true!). I love that Sarah is genuinely non monogamous and slutty and kinky. I think it’s sort of comforting and validating since I’ve always felt like I was more sexual than the average woman and sometimes felt like that was weird or wrong. It makes it such a joy to watch her scenes knowing this really is the life she wants to live and she would be doing this anyways. In a lot of ways she’s what I wish I could be, but like… the lesbian version lol. Not a pornstar, but just someone so unashamed of desire. Unashamed of what she wants and unashamed of what she doesn’t want. And someone who can experience desire and connection without attachment - I just find that SO powerful. I suppose I don’t know any of this for a fact and I hope I’m not entirely projecting lol but at least its what she seems to present in her interviews.

Sarah, I hope to god you are bisexual because I’m soo attracted to you and love watching your lesbian content so I hope you are enjoying it too. but in any case, i appreciate you. It’s just such a joy to see a truly wild and free spirited woman exist. You make me want to be a worse woman, in the best way. ❤️

A fan girl letter from a woman fan