1 day left, first meeting

I can't believe it. Tomorrow I'll be meeting her for the first time. And I feel like im gonna die ngl. Im a nervous wreck lol. I just keep cleaning and cleaning to try to keep my mind from overthinking (it's not working).

Im afraid i'll vomit all over her when I pick her up lmao.

So now im gonna make you a list of things im overthinking, not that anyone cares, haha.

- Naturally im thinking, what if she gets disappointed by me, either by my looks or personality (or both! The horror. No comeback from that one.)

- Our first kiss. When. How. What if it sucks. God.

- What if she gets bored when she is here? I do have plans but they are not grand in any way. And maybe im just boring to be with. Like she's gonna see me when I'm just existing. And when im morning tired. And so on.

- What if my English just stops working. And also god damn it'll be so embarrassing to speak English in public. Omg

- What if I mess something, anything, up. I don't know.... it's not very specific this particular thought of mine.

- Ahh I don't know there's so much more I could add but now my hands are all clammy. But im smiling. And my heart may beat out of my chest.

I look so much forward to.... tomorrow evening. Or the day after tomorrow. When hopefully I have calmed down somewhat. Crazy.

It feels so unreal. Im gonna be able to touch her. She's gonna be right in front of me?!

And this for two weeks. There's so much that can happen in two weeks. And if we don't vibe in person that will be two very long weeks. And if we do vibe it'll be two very short weeks.

Can someone pretty please give me some advice or support or anything. Anything, I beg of you lol. Maybe tell me your own (relatively successful) stories about how you met your ldr the first time.

And also pray for me and my poor racing heart. This might be my last day on this Earth.