No chances

I'm at a stage in my life where I have goals. I have purpose that leaves me motivated and relieved to continue each day. Nothing much has changed relationships wise; I still have no friends. I don't go out, talk to people outside my family, laugh and create memories even if it is silly or brief. I crave connection, I miss just being around people. It's not like I don't try; I just always bring about people that don't want depth. I'm always a pit-stop, never the destination. It gets tiring sometimes. Having goals and plans keeps me going, but I wish I could just be perceived for who I am as a person. I bring a lot of good if I was just given the chance. I guess I'm just meant to help others, and I'll just mend my own weaknesses.