Why am I like this?

I have flaws that I used to not know and I either hurt or frustrate people.

I am blunt or direct in a way my words hurt them. I wasn't trying to hurt them. When I was a kid I would usually be quiet. Too quiet they say. They, my peers and teachers, try make me talk. But somehow my words, my POV can either hurt or be helpful depending on the person.

I am forgetful. There are things I remember and there are those I don't. And pinipilit minsan na irecall ko dapat. I take notes not for me to try to recall things. But sometimes I still forget them. Bata pa daw ako makalimutin na. And it annoys them at work.

I am annoying at asking questions. I'm slow in understanding. There are times I can quickly comprehend but there are times it takes time for me to grasp it. I will repeat the questions in different ways to help me understand but it annoys them.

I will cry after being shouted and told to being said that I annoy them. "Paulit ulit nalng." Sorry na po. Ayaw ko din sa sarili ko na walang kwenta. Maging matahimik ako o hindi. Problematic and hassle ako especially kinoconsider nyo din sa mga gala natin o activity na yung sakit ko. Hassle ako kasama.

Nasa isip ko nlng sa partner ko, sa current friends and future acquaintance. Hanggang kailan nyo kaya ako matitiis? "Andito lng ako." "Kung may problema magsabi ka ha." I used to tell you these. ..pero parang nakakahiya na palagi nlng ako iiyak sa inyo alam ko na may kanya kanya din kayong problema. Ang childish yung sa akin.