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im not fucking real i cant cut beacause my balde is fucking rushty and ii dont know what to do anymore i dont feel real im not fucking real myimsk not fcukgng real what am i withouw cutiignv nothing i dont carea nout everyone anymore because everone always fucking leaves me and thye dont even giive a fuack about me tyeh only ciome t o me when tehyd need smoemthing and i always fuck everyting up so ejeirhyone hates me