I think ive just been extremely wrong about being trans this whole time.

I like being a dude now. More than a girl sometimes but i feel this has just been a fetish.

I only think of being a girl in a romantic or sexual context. And that isn't good i cant depend on others to be happy with a decision that should be solely for the person transitioning

Not to fulfill their fetish for five minutes... and then i second guess. But its easier to just stay the man I am now because I can live with it and its sadly just an easier way to live life.

I dont know this is all difficult and annoying I dont wanna feel this way genuinely I wish I could just cut it out of my head or something.

Because I cant just live with these thoughts plaguing me every so often.

This isn't anything new anyone's read so I dont even know why I bother. Im just a depressed queer person "NOBODY ELSE FEELS THAT WAY"