I just want to die now

17f here idk why I'm writing here but I just want to die now I'm going through depression and there's nobody who can help me. It's all because of my family they are the most evil person in this whole fucking world. My fucking jerk dad is not even letting me the door and cry peacefully. They all physically abuse me and I'm done with it now. It's better they just kill me or someone comes and kill me. I've been dealing with depression since 6th grade because of them. I've tried killing myself multiple times but don't have the courage to do it I start to think it'll get better but they just prove it wrong. I'm writing this with blood dripping through my hands. My mom just cut my hands in fight. I'm trying to cure my depression alone and haven't told done but they're just making it worse now. I've tried many suicide and child abuse helpline but they're all of no work in India. They're making me want to die and my will to live is not letting me die but I just can't endure it now. I hope I just somehow die now. My motive is to kill myself now I'll just die nowit can be today or tomorrow or after some days. I hope anyone goes through anything but not depression. Thanks for listening to me. I just want to say to everyone if you're going through depression please take care yourself and no one will come to save you. You have to do everything by yourself I also tried but some people are just making my urge to die even more now.