Complicated life

I'm currently 17 years old and studying in Class 12 (PCB). I took a dummy admission in Class 11, so I basically skipped regular studies and now I have only 8 months left before my board exams.

The biggest problem is Chemistry. I don't even know the basic concepts, and I don't have any tuition for it. I also find it very difficult to study in a classroom with 10 or more students around me, which is one of the main reasons I haven't joined any coaching institute.

Right now, I attend a Physics tuition that costs ₹3,000 per month and a Biology tuition that costs ₹2,000 per month. On top of that, my daily travel expense is around ₹40 (to and from tuition). My family is middle-class, so I often feel guilty about the money being spent on my studies.

Honestly, I don't know what I should do with my future. I'll appear for NEET because I'm a PCB student, but I don't really see myself competing with serious NEET aspirants. I know my preparation isn't at that level.

The truth is, I was always interested in coding and computers, but due to family pressure, I chose Biology instead. Now I feel stuck between what I wanted and what I am studying.

I don't consider myself a good student—not even an average one. I don't know what my actual skills are, and I often feel confused and scared about my future.

I just want some honest advice from people who may have been in a similar situation. What should I do? How can I move forward from here?