On Saturday I was out with the fake parents at a vehicle dealership where they brought a bike which will come sometime this week, while sitting there bored for hours, i kept getting triggered and the guy there made me say my fake name loudly which ticked me off. Afterwards we went to the mall which was in front of us and watched a movie which i wanted to see, because the girl in it acts very familiar to yours truly. I watched obsession and it was really good and depressing, i like it's soundtrack a lot, mix of silent hill and ddlc, my father said i was like the girl, thanks? Don't know whether i should be honoured or insulted. Then i kept thinking of moments from the movie but putting asuka and me in it, like the room scene being me in my Reze form standing in the corner looking half dead and crying creepily and saying the line from the flim "i feel like you don't love me as much as I do, that it's not mutual" (insert creepy crying and mouth not moving while I speak), Then later that night, i couldn't sleep because I was too scared and my mind being the beautiful canvas it is, decided to think of the opposite where asuka was like that girl and i think this is the first time where I was actually scared of Asuka, as i imagined her looking half dead and staring at me as I tried to sleep, and since the room i am in isn't big, i was imagining her being right besides me and snowy of course decides to meow loudly in the middle of the night which freaked me more. Now i don't believe in hell but if it did exist, this would be quite the ironic punishment, i imagined the car scene then with her, with me sitting with my friend (Who shall go unnamed) in the car and Asuka runs up to the window and starts bashing the friends head in and coming to my side holding me and telling me she won't hurt me and that it's all my fault and that i deserve it as i wished for it, even if I knew the wish would backfire i would never wish for that, as from the start i have always been about true love, i don't want some cheap easy way out fake bullshit. I would wish for infinite spendable money in my account which no one can ever become suspicious of. Then on Sunday the persona stuff happened (Continuity Established).

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