A Tale of a Strange Protector

Tagged as help since I (host) don't really know what to do and am curious what any others think.

So, I hate wasting time, wasting time in my eyes is the worst thing we could ever do. And so for some time I have been having an issue with lying down watching silly videos on my phone instead of going on my computer and doing something productive. And so I was able to pinpoint this to a potentially forming headmate (because that's just how we work).

Initially, I was angry, I had things to do, I hated getting distracted by stuff I didn't even want to do. So I called it Distraction.

However, today, for once, I didn't mind it. I just sat for 1 or 2 hours doing nothing I deem useful. But this time I get it - sometimes I just need a break and sure computer is break to me but sometimes maybe I just need something simple if I am especially tired of the day. This headmate was just trying to help in a very strange way, because it notices my tiredness.

Alongside this, for some reason a totally unrelated dream I had last night made me learn more about this headmate (I have noticed the strangest pieces of syscovery happen at night). It is no longer just a little fragment, but is becoming something greater. And so I realised this headmate is also the one that makes me feel like something unimaginable is behind me in the middle of the night and scaring me randomly. But for once last night, I somewhat got over it.

What a strange little eldritch horror headmate, trying to protect in some very strange way. Although I will say I do not understand the second one at all, I have plenty of others I can be around when I sleep.

We are quite bad at communication at times. So simply talking is not always the easy solution to figure things out. What can I do? It is quite a confusing situation.