Are you a virgin or not?

Gosh I will hit 22 year mark this year and still have not kissed a soul yet or never dated or been in relationship. Its not like I am unable to but I won't. I am unable to get out of the matrix that i really want to have sex with my long term girlfriend only but that my girlfriend should also be someone who i see as my future wife. Now I live abroad for now unsure of my future plans hence don't want to be the one destroying someone else's life and expectations.

But I really want to have sex man 😭 and don't wanna engage in hookups or paid sex as well, I think i will be just happy listening to yours stories tell me your experience and if you have an advice for me.