What a toxic father can do to your life

Idk guys how how to convey this but I'll try my best i am 18f (elder daughter) I have a lil sis too and i have abusive toxic father like whenever he feels like I am slightly disobeying him or whenever i try to argue about something he starts hitting me without thinking twice the twist about my story is HIS OTHER SIDE his other side is like every other loving father he gets whatever food i like he sends me money he funds my education like a normal loveing father but I genuinely started hating him I don't want to depend on him i want to run away from my house i can't use my phone in front of him because it makes him angry recently I was doing not in the mood to cook and he asked me to come in the kitchen but I genuinely hate even standing with him and i was not in the mood so I just ignored his words and went in other room he called me upstairs i said "I don't want to papa" when I didn't go here came downstairs and started shouting at me i said i don't want to &he said " mein kab se bula raha hu naa " then he started slapping me again and again till tears started dropping from my eyes I still refused to go things like this happen everytime !! Recently I got to know this through my aunt that when I was little and used to cry at night he used to hit my mom for that I can't stop crying imagining this scene and he still abuses my mom I want to leave all this but I don't know where to go i don't earn I am in my 2nd year rn i can't survive in my house i love to stay in clg hostel i avoid going home even in holidays but i have to come because I love my mom and sis and I miss them