How does one learn the arts of first pair of settlements?

Knowing me I know I will get lost in the maze of game theory and competitive lack of mercy. I don't have the nerve that sees my opponents' potential deprivation and exasperation seeing a position either blocked or snatched, while also maintaining good production. I can look forward to the good immediate spots of being last but got screwed over first by the earlier picks or getting the luxury of making the first pick, which is arguably the toughest decision and one poor judgement can cost the whole game. And then there's middle order, maybe the worst of both worlds.