I cant do this anymore

Im in pain. Drastic pain of joints. It always gets worse before period. Diagnosed with post covid, hEDS, fibromyalgia, HIT, allergy to cows milk and soya, intolerance of lactose and gluten. Since april GERD and bile relux. I have anal wall prolapse many hemorrhoids Iv been treatin since 2024. I have slow motility of stomach and intestines. Lipedema - 160cm/70kg and wont lose weight unless I literally starve. What kind of life is this? 4 years of pain, chronic fatigue, depression and anxiety and now my stomach is burnin, throat is burnt, I cough a lot, it hurts. When I swallow I can feel its like narrow or what, its been like this for 4 yrs. Im slowly losin hope. 40 and doomed. I didnt ask for this. I dont want this. They keep tellin me it gets better. No it doesnt. It gets worse and worse 😔