TW: Unsupportive Parents

**Why don't my parents love the real me??!!** The deadnaming, the misgendering, I can't take it anymore!!! 😭

Hi, I'm Liz. For context, I'm 22 and I've been out to my parents as trans for over 4 years. My mom is religious. My dad actually doesn't care that I'm trans, he even admitted it just now, but he takes my mom's side of every argument. We've been to therapy, we've had plenty of arguments, there was even a time where I moved out with a friend and ignored their existence for a month or two. Then I moved back... and the cycle started over again. I've been to psychiatric hospitals for suicidal ideation. I've had 4 suicide attempts. I've been a cutter for years, but I haven't cut since January. One time in a psychiatric hospital, my parents agreed to use a different feminine name, Delainey, and she/her pronouns. Later, after I got out, my mom tried to gaslight me into thinking they didn't agree to the pronouns. Eventually I blew up at them and I went back to using Liz because what was the point of sacrificing my preferred name if they weren't gonna use the pronouns? They started deadnaming me. I have stayed silent about being Liz from then until now, the current day, where I have now blown up at them again.

(Sigh) I'm tired, just so tired. What's the point of life without their love? I'll be here waiting for an answer...

P.S. I have scheduled a second appointment with my therapist this week so I'll be okay 🥲