I am on contract in the public sector. I do not have a permanent home position. My contract ends on the first week of August and I have been applying for the last month for internal postings. Got a few interview, waiting to hear back since my references were contacted. I started reaching out to managers and directors I know to help expedite me finding something. I pray I find something. I want to stay in the government because it's the most easiest sector I've worked in, and it's all I know. However, I started applying to research hospitals and also non-profits. 

  
Everyone says I'm "overqualified" which is a nice sentiment, but I wish that translated well into finding a job when we're under the most abysmal employment crisis and recession. 

  
Every day before work I cry. I come home and cry. I hate my job so much. I never thought I could feel this depressed in my life. My manager has been MIA for months and so our team lead has been filling in for her. She's absolutely horrible and consistently criticizes our entire team's work and has nothing good ever to say. Everything is contradictory in her feedback to the point where we bring up previous emails to confirm if she meant something else. 

Photo: Turkish Manti.

I feel like an abject failure and also trying to find a new job.