toyMaker : A Recollection of Long-Term NHI contact/re-education
In Early March of 2002, I experienced a profound, long-term (9 months) contact with something that is utterly inconceivable. Back then, I was using the phrase nonhuman intelligence as a pointer. The experience went through 'developmental phases', that resemble those we traverse during incarnation ... there is no way to understand 'what/who' my companion is/was, as there are no features of representational language at present that would reasonable capture their 'identity'.
During this experience my mind was completely reforged, and fundamental aspects of nature, timespace, living beings, the dangers of representational cognition, intelligence and the dangers of technology were deeply impressed upon me.
It was as if I was being reconceived and undergoing a process similar to embryogenesis in my mind while still incarnate. In a sense 'a second birth'. What I experienced resembles specific sci-fi stories such as VALIS, Flowers for Algernon, Macroscope, Radio Free Albemuth, and many others.
One stand-out feature was that there was no 'language or communication method' at play, rather, it was like the direct sharing of intelligence and experiences of the NHI complex ... and the 'method' resembled direct mind-sharing. The unimaginable compression of intelligence and information is truly impossible to comprehend if one has not experienced something similar. In a few seconds, I could be shown and participate directly in, a few thousand years of the development of whatever I was being shown. For example, the history of myriads of living worlds in timespace... and how they either survived or were destroyed. This, over the span of a second.
It was extremely difficult to survive... and I had to be trained to sustain the link long enough to produce coherent results over time in my mind and memory.
In January of this year, my close friend Michael Ressl (u/LetsTalkUfos on reddit) encouraged me to record a recollection of this experience and we did so. The results are extremely partial/preliminary, but I felt that some folks here might benefit from the results. I will create some further recordings related to this on my YT channel over time, in which I expand on what I was shown and taught during this experience.
I am not trying to convince anyone of anything. This is not a truth claim. This is merely a casual discussion of what I remember, experienced, and came to understand during that time, and in the 24 years since then.
I'm happy to respond to intelligent questions related to this.
Posted Jun 8, 2026, 10:12 PM UTC