I think im gonna end it.

I just cant do it anymore. I hate this world. Its so toxic and disgusting. I hate it. I wish my soul was given to someone more deserving. All I do in life is be kind and nice with people and what i get back is "freak", or "shes so weird" or "why are you friends with her". And im tired. Im done. The love of my life left me too. She changed me. I have enough promethazine to kill and I have such a strong urge to take it. Please help me.