23M huge failure, how do I pivot

23M i’ve ruined my life pretty heavily ever since i got out of high school, I chose a degree i had no interest in cause i was being rushed by my parents. However, i do not hold them accountable your first year is gen ed requirements so i should’ve realized back then. I’ve been enrolled for about 4-5 years and have completed 39 credits which equates to a year and close to a semester.

However, my life long dream has always been to work in the medical field or dentistry. I’ve ruined my gpa and chances at this beyond compare though currently sitting at a 2.8 for first year in a business degree at that. It is not that i’m not capable or lack intelligence i actually do very well on stuff that i do hand in or tests that i do, but i have crippling ADHD that i cannot seem to fix.

Should i drop school? Move on with my life to something else, i am not sure what something else could be. But i come from a south asian family where i am constantly pressured and compared to be something greater when i dont function well in a system set up for people not like me.

I also heavily resent everything about myself and have been stuck in an endless loop of self pity. And i hate the man i could’ve become, i think about it everyday and it makes me sick to my stomach to see what my friends are doing and where i am in life. Another thing is, i have a girlfriend that i want to drop cause i do not want her to be stuck in any financial burden with myself. She loves me more than i could ever type out unconditionally but i feel as if it’s not fair for a person like me to ruin her life. Outside of her i do not really have friends, all i have in life is going to work and going to school and then withdrawing from classes at the end of the semester.

Is anything still on the table? I know i have to completely reform who i am. But i feel as if there may be something else that’s a shorter investment with a faster return.