I don’t know if my experiences are valid

So I just need to get this off of my chest, I have had conversations with my brother about it but for the most part it is something I keep to myself. I understand it may look like I’m attention seeking or exaggerating but I just want to say it so someone knows how I’ve felt because I don’t know if it is valid given how long ago some of these were.

For context, I am a bigger chested girl (H cup) and developed early on (about Year 4 / 4th grade for Americans). It has affected my self esteem to the point of going to the GP to ask about a reduction to which I was denied and laughed at by the doctor when I said that was what I wanted to ask about.

Basically as long as I’ve been developed in the chest area, I have had many incidents where I have been sexualised. One such incident was the year before my chest started growing (around 9 years old) where I was on a family holiday to Gran Canaria and had made friends with this boy, and one night whilst our families were at a local bar with an arcade machine, he took me behind an arcade machine and had tried to get me to take my top off. I never told anyone about this because I was 9 and didn’t want people to think I was just causing trouble.

Then a couple years later I was about 11 years old, we were on a holiday to Kos and whilst on the beach with my family and a family my parents had become friends with, I had developed a migraine due to the heat and had went back to the hotel room to take a cold shower and attempt to nap the migraine off. I had come out of the shower to find the son of said family in our hotel room, not far from the bathroom door and my own brother yelling at him. Turns out I had been followed to the room and my brother had a bad feeling and came to check on me but when he arrived he’d saw the “friend” at the bathroom door while I was in the shower. This would be another thing I did not tell my parents as I didn’t want it escalating past my brother screaming at the lad to get out.

Since then there have been more incidents; for example in 2020 I was groomed by an older boy who had said he was my age, a friend at the time was threatening suicide and when I messaged her boyfriend because I was worried that I wasn’t able to get in contact with her he asked me for pictures of my ponytail, legs and feet, I’ve been told I enable male behaviour by a teacher at my old school because I my school uniform was apparently too revealing even though it was the same shirt as everyone else and I was not allowed to wear my own clothes as compromise, I have been cat called over my chest leaving concerts, and even had a man shape my breasts with his hands and tried to pay me for sex…I told him I was 17 (at the time I was) and he didn’t care.

I have tried to be more vocal about these incidents with my family but there’s the anxious thoughts that they won’t believe me, that it’s been too long for these experiences to be valid if I were to speak up or that I will be seen as an attention seeker. I just wish that if I could, I could give my younger self a hug because it just seems I have not been able to get a break since physically developing. I never asked to look like this and I especially didn’t ask for the comments or advances that have come with it.