Does anyone not dress up because of the stress?

I used to dress up and I enjoyed it. But the stress of keeping it a secret and not fitting beauty standards is just crushing. My hair is too thick to have the hairless look and I can’t shave my face, so I’ll never actually look good. Stopping dressing up was one of the most painful things I ever did but I couldn’t function with it in my life. This is kinda a rant but I want to know if I’m the only one who’s basically resigned from this because of their body