I can’t do anything

I am so depressed. I can barely feel any ounce of happiness. I miss our life together so much when I didn’t have all this pain and confusion and despair. I don’t get to see him like I used to, it’s like the only time I feel truly happy is when I play with his dog on visits but besides that life feels meaningless. And it sucks because I do have goals and ambitions but I don’t have the will to fight for them inme. I just keep thinking is this really it, is that all. I make this thing or learn that thing and then what. What does it matter if I’m alone at the end of the day, he’s moved on and is off with some other girl building his life and he feels just fine and happy. And I’m just left in the dirt here. Alone again. He was the only person I ever truly connected with and liked and now he doesn’t even look like my person anymore he looks different. I feel horrible like I’m in a state of constant displacement. I want to feel okay and be happy again. I used to be so ambitious, making money cleaning my cars going from this to that or whatever. I literally don’t want to do anything. I’m so fucking depressed and sad. I just want it to be over I hate this life.