41 [M4F] #Ontario - A redneck Gomez looking for his weirdo Morticia

I miss conversation and companionship. I miss that rare spark of mutual interest that breeds fascination in another where each new message gets my heart fluttering.

I’ve got some unique kinks, one in particular that’s uncommon but central to what I’m looking for and I’m not finding it in the world around me. Dating apps feel hopeless like I’m adrift in a sea of human banality. I’m too weird for most folks. Even if they find me tolerable I’m often still finding myself unfulfilled in their company and usually it turns out they don’t share my kinks which just creates a sense of distance and reluctance, like I just refuse to compromise anymore, I want to share all joys life has with my future partner. Though, often those who do share the kink share it in a way I find cringy and unpleasant. I don’t know what to do or how to find someone like me. I’m just a hopeless romantic who’s too damn weird (I would say eccentric, but I’m way too broke for that term haha) and just too esoterically kinky to look in normal places, so here goes my best shot.

I’m a weird guy. I love nature and love exploring it, relaxing among it, and working in it. I like mid century stuff like old noir detectives and gangster and pulp era heroes. I’m a huge history geek, which is charming to some and irritating to the rest. I’m artistic and creative but I’m also a bit rough and redneck in my packaging and my joys. Loving a joint, a beer, and bonfire over all things or chilling and relaxing to an old school movie. I’m a poor, educated, proletarian who just started a new trade this year that I absolutely love and gets me outdoors. I’m sarcastic and cynical and constantly tell twisted and dark jokes but I’m in constant awe of the beauty of the world.

Sexually, I’m bisexual but never had the opportunity or self comfort to explore it yet. My romantic interests resting in women, my mental baggage yet unpacked for men. As mentioned I am very kinky but in a sweet and cuddly way which I’m sure is quite the juxtaposition to many (please check my profile as kink compatibility is very important to me). I’m all about beauty, romance, and sensuality with my hedonistic debauchery. Though I must stress that despite my emphasis on sexuality, that’s not what I’m focused on. I mean I want to flirt and talk dirty, but that’s secondary if that makes sense? I need to first be fascinated and enamoured enough to truly lust and want to with someone, like connection and substance is the prerequisite, otherwise it’s just empty and dull. I guess the emphasis on sex in this post is just to make sure that compatibility is there when that connection and passion is forged so we’re not going to just disappoint each other down the road.

I don’t know what I’m truly after in another person. Love, passion, and partnership I guess. I’m just finally rebuilding my life and dusting myself off after an especially difficult series of events a few years ago that lead me to rebuilding mentally and materially from scratch. I just wish I could remember what passion and spark feel like. I suppose I need someone bizarre, kinky and quirky in ways that work with my bizarre, kinky, and quirky. I guess I’m looking for my Morticia, my Bonnie, my counterpart in this grand and twisted adventure that’s life. I just have no clue what that means or looks like exactly, but I’d love to find out.