lost 300k gambling in a year at 25. years old

i’m 25. years old and i lost more than a quarter million gambling within a year. it all started with a friend taking me to the casino when i was 21 years old not knowing that was the worst decision i ever made . i was memorized with the money glitch idea and started to feed in it more and more . i have gambled everyday for the past 6 months and i have been out of touch of reality . the only time i feel reality is when i lose . i have had days losing 50k in one day and feel completed depressed after. gambling make me feel like im not even myself it takes over my whole mental when i walk in a casino . the fact i would go to complete 0 behind it i can admit im sick and mentally ill from gambling . It’s embarrassing and i don’t wish this disease on no one . losing everything gives you suicidal thoughts and major depression . i dont wish it on my worst enemy . I have no ways to cope with this addiction it seems like it has taken over my whole life and im not afraid to say i need help .