I need help, I can't handle this alone.

Hi, I need to vent because I can't carry all this alone anymore. I'm 19 years old and from the Dominican Republic.

I lost my dad in a car accident when I was 6, and my mom to cancer right when I turned 13. Since then, I've lived with my grandfather and my older brother. When I was 16, my grandfather tried to sexually assault me one night when the electricity was out. My brother found out, there was a huge fight, and my grandfather ended up stabbing my brother. (Luckily, he didn't hit any vital organs.)

My grandfather was sentenced to 5 years in prison and died there. After that, they took away all of my grandparents' inheritance; they said he died "because of us." I never fought for that money; I had already lost too much to worry about it. My brother has been supporting me all this time while I was studying.

I recently finished high school, but I don't want to go to university because we're in a very bad financial situation. I discovered my brother has a lot of bank debt he hasn't been able to pay.

I see him frustrated, stressed, and sometimes we don't even have enough to eat properly. Two months ago, I found out my brother sold his motorcycle to pay for my high school graduation, even though he'd been telling me the whole time it was broken. People also started coming around looking for him because he was behind on payments, and that's when I found out everything. He has debts of almost $2,500 or more. A few days ago, we received a notice of foreclosure for 10 days, of which only 3 remain.

We owe two months' rent, and when the third month is up, we're going to be evicted. You might think that amount isn't much, but in my country, the minimum wage is less than $250, which is barely enough to survive in misery. A friend suggested I sell my body secretly or create a website without showing my face. But I'm incapable of doing those things; they're not from God.

What happened to my grandfather left me very traumatized. I'm afraid of men, and that's one of the main reasons I've never had a partner.

I've been looking for a job for almost two months and haven't found anything. I'm a decent, polite, and responsible girl, and people tell me I'm pretty, but no one gives me a chance. I feel desperate and very alone.

Any prayer, idea, or help is welcome… Thank you for reading this. Blessings.