DAE grow up in a mostly/ all white suburb ?

20 F (who grew up in Canada) here !

I’ve recently moved out for school in a different region of the country, there are so many other black people/ ethnic people in general here!!!! People don’t stare at me or try to touch my hair or ask me about my English and I love it!!!!

My parents are first generation, I and my sibling are second generation. We grew up in an EXTREMELY white suburb in Atlantic Canada (LOL). We are 10 years apart in age, but when we attended school, we were the only black (and actually, the only non-white) kids in our elementary and middle schools.

Our high school was a tad different. When I attended, there were about 80 black kids out of 1000 students but it still wasn’t enough. I felt so disconnected from everyone. Kids used to spread so many rumours about me and I ended up doing so much shit in high school alone, nobody asked me out to all of these big dances or to any parties, outcasted pretty much.

Fuck

I’m 99% sure that my parents did this on purpose. My dad would go on about how he haaaates white people and how I’m not allowed to have any white friends but then he raised me in a place where he knew I wouldn’t be accepted for who I truly am.

- He never let me wear my natural hair

- He said it was stupid that I wanted to leave the province for school in order to be around more people like me

- He said that white people will never like me for any reason

I was so alone. He wasn’t poor either, he was an accomplished scientist with a pretty notable degree. He made so much money that he could buy several vehicles & go on vacations. He did this because he wanted I and my sibling to grow up isolated so that way we’d rely on him and my mother.

Does this theory make sense to you guys ?

Does anybody else relate to this ?

Do you guys also have suburb trauma ?

TL;DR : (I think) that my father raised I and my sibling in a suburb in order to further isolate us.