Yeah… I think I’ve hit proverbial wall. And the reality has set in.

If you love this, truly, get off the post. Because I don’t want to bore you with negativity or anything like that.

Especially, if you have a manager/agent, and you’re steps away from making your dream come true.

So, today, I woke up pretty excited because something was in the works for me. Finally.

This year alone: I finally made the STAGE32 lookbook.

Got told by an executive, i am a one of one writer, and got recommended to the short script fund competition.

I was so confident in my script, I’d been firing on cylinders this year, I honestly thought I’d make the Semi’s without an issue.

Then I got the news I didn’t make it. And not only that, based on the feedback, it seems they didn’t actually want my version of the script made. They wanted their version.

Which, in all honesty, pissed me off, then I just got discouraged.

I’m on the younger side, I know my limits with most things.

I’ve gotten two managers to read my material. I’m very proud of that.

And I almost won a screenplay competition.

That’s all my accolades in 7 years of writing. And I know people wait way longer to have their shot.

But I’m don’t know if i can continue after this year. I’m very from the Deep South, I’ve loved movies since I was little kid, and when I decided to write movies, I thought I’d made one of the more better decisions of my life.

But the truth is: I’m still in the Deep South. I’m not in the rooms to make connections I need to make. Paying to enter competitions and not make it past the first round is ideal, anymore.

And i just don’t have enough friends to shoot by myself. Which I would’ve done otherwise.

I guess I’m just venting because it’s really hard in this industry to make it.

And sometimes you’ve got to accept, that you’re meant to do other things.

And I’m just posting here to hear some other stories from you, if you’re still pursuing this? Thinking about putting the pencil in the drawer?