A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man

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Can anyone tell me what this passage means? I have been reading a Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man for a couple months and although I am usually able to decipher the meanings of this text, this specific passage has been troubling me for a long time. It comes from pages 193-194 in the penguin classics version with an introduction by Seamus Deane. Thank You!